I Believe…

Angelism: What you believe identifies your truth. Belief is as open or as limited as you allow it to be. Belief can change at any moment if you choose to think differently.

 
I believe that life is not fair. I am not owed anything nor should I expect anything.
I believe I should always leave loved ones with loving words, I never know if that will be my last goodbye.
 
I believe I don’t have to change friends to understand that friends can change.
I believe that it will take a long time to become the person I want to be.
I believe no matter how hard I love, I will be hurt. Forgive and move on is the only healthy option.
I believe that I am responsible for the opinions others have of me. I choose how much weight I give to those opinions.
I believe I can do something in one moment of time that will change the course of my life forever.
I believe I can keep going long after I think I can’t.
I believe either I control my attitude or my attitude will control me.
I believe that money is a shitty way to keep score in life.
I believe that I should not place value on my things. What I have today may be gone tomorrow.
I believe that I have the right to be angry, but that does not give me the right to be cruel.
I believe that no matter how sad I become, or how crushed my heart may be, the world will not stop for my grief.
I believe that maturity is a state of mind, one I can turn on and off when needed.
I believe that my upbringing influenced who I am, but I am responsible for who I become.
I believe two people can look at he exact same thing and see it completely different.
I believe I can have all the degrees in the world but that’s not what makes me a smart / good human.
I believe that a total stranger can have a huge impact on my life.
I believe that keeping secrets weighs heavy on the soul. I also believe discovering secrets weighs heavy on the soul.
I believe that sometimes the people I am closest to take the most advantage of my generosity.
I believe that life is a gift, one that I am grateful for even on the toughest of days.
I believe that getting old sucks! My days are numbered no matter how hard I fight to stay young.
I believe that often the people I least expect to show up for me do.
I believe that I must believe in myself if I want others to believe in me.
I believe that I will do what I feel has to be done regardless of the consequences.
I believe in the greater good but accept that evil exists among us.
I believe that organized religion is not the only way to practice faith. It is possible to have relationship with a higher power outside of the rules of church.
I believe that I will make mistakes and that I will learn from them.
I believe in the power of love and giving.
I believe that there is only one race and that is HUMAN. We are all HUMAN and that is why we are all more alike than different.
I believe that if you agree you should share this with your friends… XO

Be In This Moment

Angelism: “Stop always looking forward to a day that has not yet arrived when you can be enjoying the moment that you are in with the people that you are with.”

I am guilty of count downs and planning so far into the future that much of my day to day focus goes towards time I’m not sure I will be gifted. So often on social media sites I see people posting things like; Is it Friday yet? When will it be fall? Only 100 days til Christmas! I can’t wait for my wedding! And my favorite one is, T-20 days until my vacation. But what if that future day we keep yearning for never comes? On Monday of last week I wished it was Friday, I wanted nothing more than to be off work and to start our three day Labor Day weekend. I wished it was Friday, until Friday arrived and I was woken up by a phone call saying my mother-in-law had passed away in her sleep. In that moment I wished nothing more than to be able to reverse time, and for it to be any other moment prior to the one I was in.

The heartache and clarity that comes at the time of loss is overwhelming. I began to process what matters most and face emotions that I do not feel day to day. The presence and miracle of time became heightened and I thought; How do I want to use each day I am granted? How should I really spend my hours? What’s truly worth worrying about? I have lost many people in my lifetime; a grandmother, a grandfather, a few aunts and an uncle, a friend and a co-worker. Losing a loved one is always painful. This time around it was harder than ever before. I had a mother-in-law that girls dream of having and now she’s gone forever. Her two sons, only in their mid-30’s, are much too young to be saying goodbye to their mom, and her grand-kids, are now deprived of their grandmother’s endless love. At age 61, she earned her well deserved Angel wings. It happened that fast. On that Friday, the one I looked forward to for fun and playtime with friends, now feels like a heavy weight on my heart, a weight that may never truly lift.
So I question; How wise it is to get excited about an unknown future date that may not be available to me in the way I expect it to be? How selfish is it to want more in the future rather than enjoying what I have right now? Every time I race through a season to get to summer vacation, or count the days down until a holiday or special event, I am focused on moments I have not been gifted that bring me one step closer to my expiration date. I find it sad that I would ever spend time being excited about losing precious days of my life just to get to the ones in the future that seem like they will be more important.
I certainly don’t want to live in the past because we can’t change that which has already happened, but now more than ever, I simply want to exist in this moment. Naturally, I will still be excited for the future, it is always wonderful to look forward to days that you anticipate will be joyful and memorable. However, my new focus is to be less concerned about my tomorrows, and more present in my today’s. My goal is to be present in this moment, this breath, this memory.
RIP Brenda, after 15 years of wanting us all together at the same time you got it! XO


The Importance of “I Love You”

Angelism: “To be in love you must be vulnerable… free of baggage, judgment, walls, fears & control.”

 

Love has always been in my life. I receive it from my family, friends, mate, neighbors, clients, pets and even strangers. Love is at the top of my list. I have always felt love and I enjoy sharing my gift of love with those I care about. I hold love near and dear to my heart. I love myself first because I’m a good person and I deserve to care for myself. I love every ounce of who I am, good and bad. The love I have for myself fuels me to give unconditional love to others. Love feels wonderful and is the best thing I can give.
I’ve realized over the years that people go days, months and even years without hearing these three, beautiful words. Many people think that if you throw “I love you” around, it becomes less special. I think anyone who feels that, has spent a lifetime not hearing it in the true, caring, passionate, considerate, and blessed meaning that it holds. Not everyone feels “I love you” is necessary in life. For me it is. When it’s my time to leave this earth, I want to leave knowing that the last three words I said to those in my life that I care for was, “I love you.” It’s meaningful, heartfelt, and lucky for me it’s FREE.
Do you have enough love in your life? If not maybe you are not open to giving or receiving it. As children, if we are not shown what love looks like, it’s hard to accept it and give it back. You may strive for it through trying to get attention, or falling for the wrong kind of love. You may push sincere love away because of fear. Love feels scary and sometimes too good to be true. Take out the self sabotaging thoughts and allow your heart to open, be vulnerable, and full of love. Give love to others and it comes back with more warmth than you could ever imagine. Give love unconditionally and share love with many types of people, not just your parents or your lover. Love is the greatest gift we can give. I want to say, “Thank you, to all who love me. Your love is appreciated and I love you too!”